Kelly's Hobbit Hole!

I've been meaning to blog, but life has been really crazy right now.
My dad is still drinking, and causing us stress, as well as at times antagonizing us :(

I want to thank you all so much for your prayers, because I know they make the differance :)
The awesome news is that there were no tears in my ligaments! :D
My knee is bruised, but the swelling has gone down dramatically. I just had to do physical therapy, which I've chosen to do at home, and it has helped :)
I started back work again this Tues., but everything has been going pretty good @ work, and I actually think the work has helped with the physical therapy of my knee.
I am very blessed & fortunate that my knee had nothing torn, and I very much appreciate your all's prayers &hearts

I know my time will come, but I hear of all these school mates, who are around my age or so, and they're married and having children, and it's kinda depressing for me. I really want to be married and have children, and I don't :(
I'm 22, and I want to have a family at an early age, and not later in life. I prayed so hard one night about the guy for me and my prince, and God answered me through a dream, so I know God will bring us together, it's just a bit depressing when it seems everyone around my age is already starting a family :/

a happier change of topic for me, is this weekend, I'm going to see "Chronicles of Narnia" with my sister at the Broadway Palm this Sun., so I'm excited about that! It's one of my favorites :)

God Bless you guys & love you all,
~ Kelly

P.S. I'm really craving blue mountain dew right now! :D

Yesterday I went to a Doctor about my knee, and x-rays were taken, and the bones are fine, so I had an MRI done. I haven't heard back about the results yet, but I'm really scared/nervous about it, 'cause the Dr. thought it might be a Meniscus tear. :(

I don't have any insurance, so I'm really hoping it's not a tear :(

Please pray about this ... I'm scared :(

thanks so much & love you guys &hearts&

I injured my knee while skating today... I've been putting ice on it, and I now have an Ace brace around it, and elevated, but it's sore, especially when getting up.

If you all could pray, I'm nervous and kind of scared, I've never had this happen before. I think I landed wrong, and twisted it, but after doing some online research, I don't think anything is torn.

Prayers would be really appreciated, if you guys don't mind.

thanks so much! :)

sorry, for not blogging in awhile, a lot has been going on...

My dad's drinking is continuing, and it's putting more stress and strain on all of us -- he doesn't think he's hurting anyone, but he is, emotionally. Sometimes, he drinks up to 10 a night, but that's mostly on weekends. But on average, he does between 14-20 a week... which is signs of alcoholism. He doesn't think he has a problem, and even when my mom confronts him about it, he still doesn't see it. He's always like "I just wanna have one drink", but it's not one drink, it's more. And pretty much every night.

My mom has also lost her job with LabCorp... but we both feel this is actually a blessing in disguise. The people she worked with could be rude at times, and especially the leader, thought she was always right, and was abrupt with mom. And mom is tired of LabCorp, and doesn't really want to work for them anymore. So, she can't wait til her last day, when she will hopefully be gone completely and get her severance pay.

I'm not trying to be gloom & doom, life is great and always will be, it's just a lot is happening right now...

thanks guys & I love you all &hearts
~ Kelly

I've been meaning to post this awhile....
But there's communities on LJ and such, about secrets, mostly in regards to celebs, like jonas_secrets, but I've been thinking it would be a good idea to make a secrets post on here.

You comment anonymously and post a secret, any secret, and IP tracking is off.

I'm doing this, because I feel sometimes it's just good for people to get things off their chest ... even if it's online, or an anonymous journal.

~ Kelly

Hey everyone!

TGIF! =D

I've completed 4/50 books so far on my list -- I guess not bad for the new year :) I really wanna read more this year ^_^

I'm glad this weekend too, because unless Joan asks me, I won't be working Saturday, w0ot w0ot! :)
I've worked the past 3 Sat's, so it'll be nice having this one off, and I can do the Disney/Nick Skate again :D

And if some of you are gamers, you've gotta check out Fallout 3 -- it's an awesome game! :D
I've made 2 characters - one myself, who I be nice to most people in the game, and the other one: a total douchebag, who I gave blue hair too, and I do stuff for people, but I make her give 'em crap... LOL! It's funny sometimes to hear their responses to that stuff... :>

Anyway, how's everybody doing? I'll try to catch up on my friends page later :)

Have a great weekend, you all! :D
~Kelly

Well, I got to work today and all of the parking spaces were used up 'cause there was a test or something being given there.. So, I had to park in the park behind the library, and jog to the building :p
I was late, but I called and told my supervisor why, and he wasn't upset about it, so I'm glad that went well :)

As for the interview, well, one of the women who interviewed me told me that they had selected someone else for the job, but that she thought I did very good on the interview, and it was a tough choice. She encouraged me to apply for other positions... I've heard that before, and it doesn't do too much really :/

I'm kinda glad she told me though. It's almost better to know now, than to have to wait til the first week of Dec., which was when I was told I would hear something back.

So, that didn't work out... but I'll get over this, because God has something greater.
I prayed about this job, and like the first one, I prayed if God wanted to get this job, I would, if not, well....

I feel He wants me to be a writer, so I'm gonna throw all of my effort into writing and trying to get things published... I've got a few ideas I've been throwing around, so I'm gonna do my hardest to work on them :)

Thanks for the encouragement makeitbacon on the job -- it really meant a lot to me! *huggles*

It's really nice and cold here in FL, and it's sooo nice! :D -- I've got the windows open and am loving the cold fresh air ^_^

Joy for Winter! :)
Love and Hugs,
~* Kelly ^_^

Whoo!

The interview is like the most nerve wracking 15 min. of your life! :$
I hope it went well... I think my last answer was good, about why I wanted the job :D

I really hope I get it... I think maybe Maryellen wants me to get it... so lots of praying I will be doing about this :)

Just wanted to get a quickie blog in before mdinight :)

G'night & love,
Kelly

Ack, I missed the blog for yesterday :(
Geesh, that's bad blog day #2, and I couldn't even get one LOL :P

Well, today, I basically slept in til 1:30 pm LOL and when I did get up, I went grocery shopping with my mom, that;s cool :)
I went skating again today with my sis for the Rhythm and Retro night :D - They didn't play as many good songs but the highlights were "Dancing Queen" and "Funkytown", and they played this 80s song that I'd never heard before, but I liked it :)

Soo... the interview is tomorrow! I am SOOOOO nervous :$
If you guys wouldn't mind praying about it, I'd really appreciate it! I really want this job! :D

This is a short blog, but that's mostly all I have to say for now. :)

love & huggles
~* Kelly

What's shakin' everyone?

I've made a resolution: I'm going to try to blog everyday :)
Long or short, sadly I've been neglecting my blog :(

The biggest thing going on right now, is a full-time position has opened up at the library! :D
I've applied for it, and I have an interview Monday, and I'm really nervous! I feel pretty confident, 'cause I know I can do the job, and I think I have a good shot at it (esp. if one of my co-workers doesn't try for it.)

Some of the biggest reasons right now that I want this job is the money. Not 'cause I'm greedy, but it will allow me to save easier and more for a car, to help pay off my brace payments (which are my biggest expense), and to make things a little easier. Also, I won't have to get 2 part-time jobs, which makes things much easier! :)

My brother is also going for a full-time library position, and I really hope he gets it! :) - He's excited about, and it would give him better benefits :)

I'm working on moving my hosting to HostGator, which so far, I'm really happy with! :D
I was using 1&1 hosting, but I wasn't able to run Coppermine & 4images to the full extent of the programs due to, I believe, memory limitations with their PHP, and with HostGator, so far I haven't had those problems, save for 1 picture :) - Also CPanel is much easier and allows for a lot more control than 1&1 :)
But if you ever get a web hosting site & domain, I don't recommend registering the domain with your hosting company, as it's kinda easy in the end to have them set up in separate places :)

I know I've been a bit absent in commenting some of your all's entries, but I have been reading them :)

I hope you all have a rockin' Sunday!! :D
*Huggles all around!* ^_^

And I got approved for 0% APR credit card so I can use for my braces if needed, yay! :D

I went to the Disney/Family skate today with my sis, Lauree, and we had a good time! They played so JoBros songs, and some good Disney/Nick stuff :D
I did a bit more tricks/dancing on my skates this time, and did better skating overall with them :)

~* Kelly

Howdy Hoe!

How are all my friends doing? I haven't been blogging in a while now, but I have been reading my friends entries, I haven't commented on all of them, but I have been keeping up with them :)

I feel almost like I have things to talk about, and yet nothing to talk about, LOL! :p

Right now I have a cold, but I'm feeling better today than I was yesterday, and thank God my sore throat is gone! :D -- That's kinda one of the worst parts of a cold, that and the cough, and thankfully the cough hasn't quite developed yet :)

Now let's go on to more interesting things, lOL! :)

I normally am not big on Halloween at all, but I'm actually looking forward to it this year! Simply for: dressing up! We get to wear costumes at the Library, and for this year, I'm gonna dress up as Snow White! I'm actually very excited about this :) I'm going to get a wig and everything, and I've never worn a wig, so I'm looking forward to doing something very different and cool :D ~ I'm hoping too, that some kids might realize I'm dressed up as a Disney Princess, and like that. I love kids, and I look forward to (hopefully) getting a good reaction from them, kids are adorable and they are sooo cute <3

Here's the costume, I want to get, and I'm going to Target today, to get it, since it says they have it there :) ~ http://www.amazon.com/Extreme-Halloween-Inc-White-Costume/dp/B0018P5LS2/ref=pd_sbs_a_6

And I'm going to get one of these wigs to go with it: Wig 1 | Wig 2

I'm not sure which wig to get, so if you want, I'd appreciate it if you let me know which one you like best :)

Also, I'm excited about this too, because Relient K & Toby Mac are coming to my area!! :D ~ Nov. 16 as part of the Winter Wonderslam tour, and I can't wait about that, because RK is finally coming to where I live! And TobyMac will be awesome to see live <3

And in Dec. my parents are going up North to visit my mom's parents for about 1 or 2 weeks, and I can't wait, 'cause it will be nice to have a small vacay and to have the house to ourselves :D - It will just be my sibs and I, and we are gonna par-tay like no end!! Haha, just kidding, I'm not a party person at all, unless it's a fun one with no alkie :)

I'm also working on some cross stitching projects, one of which, is for my Grandparents up North, so I'm hoping to have that done in time... but we'll see... I've barely even scratched the surface :p ~ It's a counted cross stitch which I now realize is harder than the stamped ones, lol! I've also got one, that I think my sister will like, so I want to try to finish that one for her too :D

Here's to a fun week and endless crazy fun and jokes! :D (and mayhaps pricked fingers from needles? lol!)

Til my next blog adventures ;)
~ kel

It's been a little while since I've blogged... I've gotten over a stomach virus that could've been a whole lot worse than what it was, and now I'm recovering from a cough that's lingered. but hey, I can't complain too much ... the 2 days off from work were nice :D

So, how has everyone been? I've been keeping up with my friends list, so no worries! ;)

I just updated my reading list tonight, and I've realized that I haven't even made half the goal of last years! That really peeves me :( - I love reading, but I haven't finished as much as I thought.... I should start counting magazines! LOL!

I've begun weeding out some bands on my MySpace -- no offense to them, I just don't listen to their music much or aren't as familiar with them, and I'd like to keep the networking on their down a bit, and actually get to know some 'real' people on there :) -- My brother jokingly asked last night, "Who's getting the axe?" lol, so far it's only been 6 bands.

I also heard that from a girl on an LJ Jonas Brothers comm, that Y100 was in the process of getting the Jonas Brothers to Florida! Oh yes! I'm gonna email one of my local stations and let them know of this, and I hope we'll be able to get them to come here -- I sooooo wanna see them live :D

I've been trying to write some of my "Film Disaster Island" fic, and it's like I want too, but I don't know where to start with it sometimes, lol. It's coming a bit slow, but it's getting there :)

So... spill everyone! How are you? :D

love,
Kelly ^_^

P.S. please pray the JoBros come to my hometown, or near it -- at least we can road trip then :D -- thanks *big hugs*

i sure hope today gets better ... 'cause so far I've spent most of it pissed off!!

Today has gotten better, yay!
I went to the dentist, and for once --- no cavities! :D

I've talked to my mom a bit more, and we're not upset at each other anymore. I find that as of more recent, I've been honest/open/blunt with her about things, and usually with a better result. Actually, it seems I'm being more open and honest with people as of more recent. Sometimes I have to be blunt with them, because it's the best way to get my point across.

I've started reading "Battlefield of The Mind" by Joyce Meyers -- and so far it's really good, and she's right. I've only read about 20-22 pages, but when she got to fictional character of John as an example, I read it, and I was like 'Oh my word! This is my dad's life story!'

John in the book, has a mother who put him down saying 'he would never make anything of himself' -- which is like my dad, only it was his dad who told him that. His dad never believed in him, and never encouraged him. John didn't like confrontation, and let the wife handle the children, the finances, and everything, and sinked into the TV and sports realm -- something my dad does a lot. He's involved with us, but my mom handles a lot of the finances and everything. John avoids confrontation, and when he has been involved with it, it seems no one listens to him anyway, so he's like 'why bother?'

I read that to my mom, and she agreed that it fit dad pretty much to a tee.

I'm reading through this book, to see if it might help my sister. I was shelf reading one day @ work, and it seemed to jump off at me, as something that might be good for her. So, I'm checking it out, and so far, so good :D

I didn't pass my driver's test today. At first I was really pissed about it, but now after some time has passed, I realize that she probably did the best thing by not passing me. I crossed to far into the other lane of traffic while making a turn in the parking lot, which disqualified me. I also must've gotten quite a bit wrong on the eye test --- so I'm gonna have an eye exam and then re-take the test -- also hopefully with a bit of more practice going around the curves more. I think I was a little nervous about that too ' cause I'm always afraid I might hit the curve... so I'll have to work on that more :D

hope everyone has a nice monday (and relaxing too :)
love & hugs,
~* Kelly ^_^

I go to bed, i'm really tired LOL!
i just wanna blog a quick one and say: this next mon. I'm going for my driver's license test & I can't wait!

Hello? Freedom, hey old friend, good to see you again :)

have a good one everyone :D
love and hugs,
kelly

Please pray for my Dad... he's drinking a lot, and he's saying God doesn't love him.... he's letting the past come back to haunt him. my sister just talked to him, and he's feeling awful about his friends during the Vietnam War who died and he can't remember them. He feels that God will hold it against him for what he did during the war... he was in the Air Force, a crew chief for C-130s, and he never killed anyone, but he feels because he contributed to others killing, and he feels that God won't forgive him for that. And he brought up David... David made a lot of mistakes, but he realized that, and God forgave him. David was a man after God's heart --- God used him for great things!!! Just because you were/are a soldier, I don't believe God holds that against you at all!! He knows the predicament soldiers are in, He also knows that a lot of times you don't want to be there, but you are, and I feel that God holds a special place in his heart for soldiers.

I know God loves him and forgives him, but he needs to know and accept. If you could pray for my dad, I'd really appreciate it. He needs more than what he's living for now.

I went to the flea market with my mom, sis & bro, and came home, and my ... dad was pretty much drunk. he had 5 beers *sigh* -- he is an alcoholic -- and he didn't use to drink quite so much. they used to have some wine coolers, but mom doesn't drink those anymore (she doesn't drink at all), but my dad's has gotten worse. and he doesn't get mean when he drinks like he used too, as he says when he was in the Service, but he starts talking and it's kinda really incoherent and really weird.... he was talking to my sister about keeping a #8 in her wallet as it "supposedly" brings financial luck, and then he mentions that and numerology, which he should know better than that. the Bible makes it clear to avoid things like this.

the flea market was a bit boring, but it was better than coming home to a dad who got drunk while we were gone, and according to my sister, he did it 'cause he was bored.
God has revealed to me about my soulmate, and I can't wait to meet him. someone who like-minded like me, and wonderful to be around. to get away from some of this insanity and un-stability-ness at home. i'm ready to know what it feels like to love someone wholly and completely and to be loved like that in return.

on a better note, I picked up Susan Ashton's cd "Awakened by the Wind" -- I look forward to listening to it... awhile back ago, when I was feeling depressed and un-wanted, like I was a major screw-up, I played her music, and brought a lot of light. It made me feel a lot better, and I know God used her to help me right in that moment. Music has been a big help to me throughout my life, and many different songs speak to me in different ways. I can't fathom life without Music -- it's a blessing and one of the best gifts from God :)

What are some songs that have helped you through hard times? Here's a few of mine:

Susan Ashton's Greatest Hits Album ~ (I was feeling pretty low, and I listened to this in the first time for a long time, it I felt really good after it.)

"Praise You in The Storm" by Casting Crowns ~ This song played on the radio when my sister and I were out driving, and we had just lost our little Guinea, Sweetpea, and it hit us hard in a good way. We were crying, and we knew, this song was for us. To this day, I can't hear this song without crying.

"Hallelujah" by Krystal Meyers ~ This song makes me think of my Grandma, who wasn't at all perfect, but one of the most Christ-like women I've ever known. This song is beautiful, and it reminds me of her.

"Beauty of Grace" by Krystal Meyers ~ This song is so beautiful, it makes me get teary eyed, at how much Jesus loves us, that no matter how big we screw up, He's there waiting with open arms, wanting us to come to Him.

"Failure to Excommunicate" by Relient K ~ I love this song, because it tells how Jesus loves all people --- and the people who are shunned and mistreated by others, which I think we can all identify at some point with.

"Which Bury Us or The Hatchet" by Relient K ~ This song reminds me of my dad & Uncle Mark, 'cause their relationship isn't really that good, and it's an excellent rock song too :)

"On Fire" by Switchfoot ~ This song makes me think of being on fire for Jesus... it's a beautiful song, it's just like you close your eyes and it fills your soul, it's beautiful.

"Twenty-Four" by Switchfoot ~ just like above, this song fills your soul, and it's so beautiful and peaceful. I think the song is about being comforted by the Holy Spirit, and getting closer to God, and wanting to be close to him. It's one of favorites by them, for those reasons.

"That's Just The Way We Roll" ~ Jonas Brothers --- This song reminds me of my brother, sister, and I --- that no matter what people think of us, or what they say. we are who we are, and no matter what anyone says or does, we aren't changing.

"Beyond Justice to Mercy" by Susan Ashton -- I love this song, because it's a very unique song how sometimes reaching out with love, and doing so, can make all the difference in someone's life. I think that's something that's really important in today's world.

"Tears of the Saints" by Leeland -- I love this song because it talks about how we pray for lost ones to come to Christ, and the love and redemption they feel when the 'prodigal sons' do return. it's beautiful.

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That's all of the ones I can think of right now, I may add more though later.

love & hugs,
Kelly ^_^

I feel so back logged :(
I wanna build my sites, but I feel like I have no idea where to begin with them :'(

I finally got the main page up for Drake's: http://burning-filaments.miladyromance.net
And the Jonas Bros has a main page & gallery up: http://wayweroll.miladyromance.net

But there's so much more :/

Tomorrow I will devote time to them I hope... I have a tendency to procrastinate on these things :/

Anyone have any suggestions for what they'd like to see on the sites? :)

  On other news, my brother has an interview with the theater for a job, and I really hope he gets it! He's been looking for a job for awhile now, and I know he really wants this one :)

love and kisses <3
~* Kelly ^_^

P.S. I've got some pics from the fair from when my bro and I were on the Ferris Wheel, I'll try to post those maybe tomorrow :)

In other daily news! yay! lol ;)

We're going to the local fair this weekend ,yay! It's been forever since I've been to a fair! It will be awesome! :D
And after riding on Primeval Whirl & Splash Mountain in Disney World with Seth, I look forward to hitting some of the more rollercoaster-ish rides this time :D
Lauree wants to go on a Ferris Wheel --- and I'm game, I think it will be cool :)
I can't wait for that! It will be awesome :D -- Maybe I can win some cool prizes -- I hope I never usually win at that stuff, lol!

I've got a music video, I'm starting to work on. It's using the JoBro song "Year 3000" for different movies, mostly featuring: Back to the Future, Clockstoppers, Minute Men and Logan's Run. That's one of my favorite songs by them, and now I've got the resources to do it :D --- I'll will be posting it on here, once it's done :)

1/3 or 2/3 of my New Year's Resolutions are happening! I've let my fingernails grow out nicely, and I love them! It's very nice having longer nails, as opposed to shorter ones. And according to my ever-changing scale, I have lost 4 lbs. on this diet ... so I hope that's right, it's hard sticking to it, as the food quantities are all in portions, and that takes awhile to get used too. I find that I have a hard time fighting back the sweets craving, but I've improved a bit in that area I guess.... I majorly cut back on my soda, and every now and then I have some, the worst was I had like 2 glasses or so in one day... and so I'm trying there :)
'Cause I really wanna look in the mirror and look better and be healthier :D

I can't wait for the fair, and have a great weekend everyone!

Love and hugs,
~* Kelly ^_^