I wanted to share how I've felt God's presence in my life recently. I posted before about some of the crap that my family is going through right now, and for the most part, I've been having a pretty hard time with it all. A couple of weeks ago, I was feeling really discouraged because I'm single and with all the stuff happening with my Dad and family in general, I've been wishing I had someone to talk to when I get frustrated or just need a hug and someone to whine to (and to possibly fix a couple of minor issues with my car since it got put aside when my Dad got sick and couldn't do it himself).
As a result, I found myself missing my ex-boyfriend (who I dated earlier this year and haven't spoken to since June), even though he treated me like dirt and if I was still with him now would probably be making things a whole lot worse for me at the moment. So I began hating myself for missing his presence and entertaining the fact of calling him up or something because I have no logical reason to want him back in my life in any shape or form. I was frustrated with my family situation, my current single-ness, and to top it off, the month long novel writing challenge I started at the beginning of this month was not even fun for me, like it should have been.
Around this time I had started reading
Chicken Soup for the Christian Soul, and the stories at the beginning were not making me feel much better about things. Then I came across a story about a woman whose baby wasn't making white blood cells properly and how she was getting frustrated because she had been praying and nothing was happening. It wasn't until one night she felt the urge to reread the story of Abraham and Isaac and realized that she wasn't fully submitting to God, and she mentally sacrificed her baby as Abraham had done with Isaac, and on the next doctor visit, her baby had made a major improvement. After reading that story I realized I was getting frustrated for the wrong reasons, and that if I just sit back and let God take care of it, someone will come along, and everything will be all right in the end, and I've been feeling much better about things the last couple of weeks. :)